Sravna,
Why dont you explore Quantum physics?
Science in the real sense plays the role of " Saguna" for us humans to relate to " Nirguna" reality.
A scientist to a great extent does have some access to higher knowledge otherwise he or she wont be able to discover all the theories from time to time.
Real learned scientist are usually humble and almost " realized"
The " arrogant" ones are usually are more into intellectualization more than realization.
Quantum physics seems to have a lot of info about what lies beyond.
Take wave particle duality for example.
If in wave format and unobserved, light goes through all openings in the experiment and spreads everywhere.
But if its observed, it is in particle format and only goes through one opening.
What do we get from this?
Dont we see we can understand omnipresence here?
That is if a person's spiritual station is at a wave format, he is able to be everywhere at the same time..just like the light wave going through all openings.
Do we see how science actually helps us understand reality better?
Not all of us might be trained in the field of Quantum physics but we can always read up and study it ourselves as we do have basic understanding of science and knowledge is everywhere these days.
So why dont you explore all these?
When we study something we do not focus on ourselves, so it allows us to progess spirituality unobserved by anyone or even ourselves.
Try that.
Dont focus on your kundalini.
Kundalini is feminine, She is shy.
She only wants to reach Her Lord in the Sahasrara.
She doesnt like to be " observed"
If you "Observe" Her, like a shy chaste woman She will veil Herself and never ascend to Sahasrara Chakra.
