renuka
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Yes sir, you are right.
I am not enlightened enough to know brahman. I have some bookish and vague idea about Brahman.
I have been a regular Hindu, praying and visiting Temples. I was also the puja committee Chairman of the Temple.
I have come to the conclusion like Renukaji and Sangomji, that what people worship as God, is false.
I am just not able to live that lie anymore. I go to Temple so that I do not rock the boat, but I think it is futile.
Dear Prasad ji,
I feel I did not really say that what people worship as God is false but what I meant to say is its for personal reasons we humans pray..ranging from material needs to mental needs but we choose to mask this by calling our endeavor Bhakti/Jnaana.
BTW have you tried to link your feelings right now with the Varna System..I mean a Varna system of the mind?
You see when we first start to pray we are in the Shudra Mode...that is we are fairly ignorant and need instructions laid out and follow everything prescribed and subscribed like a dutiful servant.
Then when we get a hold of some basic understanding we start to desire material gain and pray to God for material comfort and go into ritualistic mode. The Vaishya Mode
Next is when we are either contented with our material state or realize that its not really what we really want..we go into Kshatriya mode where we face rebellious state of mind..we are in a conflict with our own senses and understanding.
This is where one might start rejecting everything one would have held on too before and finds the mind in a turbulent state..directionless sometimes..a rebel without a pause!
This is when one requires a Guru.... to lead them to the last and final state of Brahmana Mode..where one finally becomes a knowner of Brahman.
So may be right now you might just need to give in to the rebel in you..come what may..its the brave one who finally succeeds...there is nothing to fear in having a mind that is rejecting everything known to you.. even the concept of God.
The mind needs to unlearn and be emptied before it can actually truly "Know" anything.
After all I dont personally feel God wants to be praised..Its we humans who want to praise God in hope for something in return but we do not want to admit it.
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